BECOMING

I have had a lot on my mind lately. I have got my 37th birthday at the end of the month, and I have decided instead of worrying about getting older. I am going to be so THANKFUL that I get the opportunity to live another day, month & hopefully at least one year longer. We can never take the time that we are given for granted.

I have always loved the saying "Life is not measured by the number of breathes we take but the moments that take our breathe away." I need to make sure that my time here counts & that I make the most of it.

So, I am going to focus on the positive things in my life. I feel so extremely blessed; I have my health, a wonderful, loving husband, 2 happy & most importantly healthy children, I have a modest home, wonderful parents, siblings and extended family, and most importantly I have the gospel of Jesus Christ in my life. All this & many more things I am SO THANKFUL for.

On Sunday, in our YW lesson, we talked about our agency & making good choices. Our Bishop shared with the girls, that if he could encourage them to do one thing in their lives it is to Choose to Learn from the choices that we make both good & bad & to learn from the trials that we have in our lives, whether the trials are brought on by choices that we have made or ones that were given to us. That we learn from them & BECOME a better person because of them & our experiences. I loved the words he used; Choose to Learn. They are action words, they take a certain amount of work on our part. It truly is a choice that we have to make, if we are going to be bitter over the experiences that we have been given or to be a better, more positive person. I Choose to Learn. I Want to Become better!

"In contrast to the institutions of the world, which teach us to know something, the gospel of Jesus Christ challenges us to become something." Elder Dallin H Oaks

I love, love, love this! The idea of Becoming someone better, someone others can look to, someone who the Lord can turn to & trust. I want to work harder on Becoming!

So, you ask, what will You do then, to make these changes to become something. I will tell you, what I will do. For my 37th birthday, I am going to be Brave. Isn't there a saying that goes something like Fake it until you make it. Well, something along those lines. I will Pretend that I am the bravest person out there. That I can conquer what ever is thrown at me. So, I am going to give myself a cane for my birthday. So, you may be asking yourself "Why would she give herself such a thing & why does she have to be so brave with such a silly thing?" Well, my dear friends, this is a very big deal for me. I have actually needed a cane now for about 5 years. Right after I had Parker, Clayn took me into the Commission for the Blind, and they wanted to get me training with one then. Well, I tend to be a bit on the stubborn side & things have to be my idea in order for them to work. So, I did it! I made the call this morning & I am meeting with the lady tomorrow, (she is actually coming to my house, which is a very good thing, so then I won't have to fight with the kids in the Commission for the blinds office. NOT FUN!).

I have some worries & concerns about getting a cane, but, I know that as I make this difficult step, that the Lord will bless me in my Learning & hopefully this will help me to continue to move down the path of Becoming. Becoming someone who is more trusting, someone who is a little more brave, and someone who is humble enough to ask for help. So many times in my life, I haven't wanted to ask for help. However, it is in those times that I have shown some humility & asked for help, that I have been blessed.

So, Happy Early 37th Birthday to me! I can be brave! I can learn! And most of all, I can take the steps to Become whom the Lord needs for me to be. I know that with him all things are possible!